on the verge of giving up.
Monday, March 15, 2010 4:20 PM
This is a damn emo ranting post so if you dislike reading emo posts you can just click [x].
(TQ i do not need any comforting tags on my shoutmix unless its other stuffs non-related to this post.)
Nobody knows. I'm doing what i don't want to do. Do I have a choice? Do I? Can I? 不做我该做的不对因为我有责任。做我可以做或可以帮的也帮了。如果我不在场， 我也会担心， 会在想情况如何。我不在场，我有我的原因。对我来说，有到好过没到。I'm the kind of person that will mind what people thinks of me. It upsets me alot if people misunderstood me. I really want to give up. I do not want to be tighten down by burdens. Its controlling me not to do what i want to do. I've been telling myself i can do it i can do it. Its okay. Just try.. But i tried my best. Its so hard....
Something is bothering me maybe i think too much & causes my actions to be too cold towards someone. But i dont mean it. :( Joesonghabnida..
Have been super pessimistic since dont know when. Even if i'm smiling for today the next day it hit me back to square one. I'm so happy on Saturday & Sunday was spoiled. So irritated by the mood change. If by drinking can forget the stress or unhappiness i'll drink. If by working non-stop can forget i'll work. If by popping panadols and go to sleep can forget i'll just swallow the whole packet. I dont wish this to go further. So tired... Not physically but my mind.... Please enlighten me.
