Just watched P.S I Love You. Yah, i know i'm slow. Jerry is sweet, he planned everything for Holly before he died. Its heart breaking to take the fact that someone whom you love went off just like that. Be it sickness, accidents or in a natural disaster. Its unpredictable sometimes. Well, i've been thinking what if i go just like that, w/o any warnings. How would my mummy react if she knows bout it. How would all my friends react? Will they miss me? Will they even remember me when i'm gone? Yes, people take things for granted often. Life is so fragile that you have to make sure you make full use of your life right NOW. Tell those people you loved them not everyday, but once in awhile that you loved them, you're glad that you have them it will make them feel loved. :) Even though its a simple lunch/dinner within an hour, it makes it all worthwhile. Spending quality time together. I'm always telling myself, i have to take out time at least a day every week no matter what to meet my girls. & yes i did it. I'm meeting them at least once a week. :)

Should plan more meet-ups with my cousins. As some have to work, some have to go school. I'm feeling quite guilty cause i din really went to visit AhMa ever since i started working. The timing don't clash when i go to AhMa house. I din make an effort to go visit her at the coffeeshop on weekends or probably after work. I will improve on this if i really got a job after that. I didn't really accompany mummy also when she's at home. I just stayed home, online whole day, talk to her, eat with her. & she'll go to bed before i does. That makes a day. & i didn't do housework these days liao. Getting lazier. :X Opps. Haha. Will work on it also. I have yet to buy her her birthday present! Its coming real soon. I'd better keep track of the time. Haa.

& yes, couldn't sleep yesterday felt emo and today i'm feeling so bluuueeee but i don't know why. I wanted to have supper so suddenly yesterday but i have noone to call. I was feeling hungry, stomach is calling me. But i stayed home. Son was saying that too bad he stays far from me, if not he will accompany me go eat. So sweet of him TOO BAD he wasn't staying near me. BUUU! Haha. Saw TJK's friendster comment that Alisha gave & i was way tooo late! That was like 3AM in the morning liao! Tsktsk, couldn't ask me to wake them up to have supper right? :( Sometimes i wanted to have a someone to sms, someone to call anytime when i'm bored, someone to jio go out whenever i wants to go out. Especially at those wooo hours. No i'm not despo. No i'm not hinting that i need a boyf. I just need someone to be there when i need him/her. Be it its a boy or a girl. I need a pair of ears & a mouth. (Mouth to reply me. Haha)

Guess i know the reason now. Cause i'm not working and it tends to make me feel bored in a way then i will start to anyhow think. Its true you know. Not only me, everyone does if you have nothing to do. It makes you tends to think more, which is very unhealthy. So i'm like hoping to start work soon & get $kachings$ in my pocket. LOL. Right, thats enough of my pourings. :D . Its good to reflect on yourself once in awhile to change for the better.

Goodnight!